[confession time: 2012] on whiteness in trans/queer POC spaces.

i do not feel at home with whiteness. i can no longer open my heart up to it unless it is about re-distribution of resources and not taking up space, genuine discussions of realizing power. now, in the context of white trans/queer people specifically, when you are taking up rude space in brown, POC, mixed transgender and queer communities, i want you to know that i see you. our brown/mixed lives are not to be toured like an easy breezy vacation getaway. just because we might hold transgender/male/masculine/queer banner together, don’t think we are the same. we’re not.

[confession time: 2011… still.]

[confession time 2011]

#87

cue that moment when you are on tumblr and people re-blog cool artists/poets who *appear* dope and get a lot of progressive mainstream play. my impulse responses are: 1) i’m very old, as some people are my professional & artistic peers who have problematic ways about them who have not been receptive to being compassionately checked on their privilege and go about getting yay and roar for their lack of praxis. ex: fatphobia, transphobia, so much heterosexism it is nasty, most straight cis/non-trans men of color. 2) i cross my fingers that just because we are hungry for representation, we do not accept every creation, artist, activist, and potential movement maker as unquestionable dopeness immune to mistakes or growth.

[confession time 2011]

#5
is contemplating ftm & masculinities in poc community— the tensions, white love, swagger, & solidarity. per usual for thursday.

# 689
possible blasphemy- i don’t think john legend’s cover of ‘rolling in the deep’ is all that. was that a qtpoc faux-pas?

[confession time: 2011]

confession #9:
sometimes to counteract the winter’s lack of sunlight & the world’s heaviness, i watch youtube videos of baby animals. though the affects are only temporary, it is still helpful.

*cue frolicking videos of baby chihuahua “battling” with calm german shepherd’s
tail.*